walk on

An ambulance came to take me away today. I could feel it coming, I could feel the nothingness dissolving over me. Gone. This is the first time I've ever fainted. It's like your body restarting itself. A foreign blackness that consumes you. But it's my own doing. I foolishly forgot to eat after I gave blood today. But my mind has been else where. Last night I earned another crack in my heart. Single again, but definitely not on the prowl. I knew it would hit sooner or later. I felt the tremors a while back. Earlier this week my mom's heart broke. When your mom's heart breaks, yours follows stead. Sometimes the weeks are filled with rocks, and you have to walk on to softer ground. Baggage gets heavy, but you have to push forward. Where else do we go? Today wasn't the best follow up to last night, but I'm going to take them as they come, conscious or unconscious.

Just bandage up your feet and walk on.

2:31

Swava Pearl, what will you do with yourself? You can paint and write and read. You can sing in the shower with any famous pop star. You can cry and dream of better days. You can say time will fix it all. But what will you do with yourself?